He has made everything beautiful in it's time.

He has made everything beautiful in it's time.
Ecclesiates 3:11

Friday, 20 January 2017

five minute friday :: refine

The words and promises of The Lord are pure words, like silver refined in an earthen furnace, purified seven times over. ~ Psalm 12:6, AMP

I am currently on a journey to nowhere, and I can't say that I have been praying earnestly, in fact, I didn't.

But God, our ever faithful Daddy God, so loving, so patience and so faithful, my everlasting Father in heaven. He just won't let me live a life this way, and I am constantly being reminded by friends, and the Holy Spirit, to go back to His words.

The flesh are weak, but the Spirit are alive, and I am making my way back to God's words. I started my daily devotion reading, listening to Pastor Prince's sermon on my iPhone 6, praise & worship songs and musics.

I am not trying to be holy again, I am trying to be happy again, and only Him can bring true happiness to me. This, I am truly thankful for. Hallelujah!

Wednesday, 11 January 2017

Movie: Patriot's Day

First movie for 2017, a great one I must say. Thanks to M1, and Tina for the free ticket, though watching it with a colleague that I don't think I will wanna watch movie with him alone again, but at least he is not those chatty type that will keep talking during the movie. Haha!

The movie, is based on the real event, the Boston Marathon 2013. The bomb that killed 3 and injured many when the yearly marathon was ongoing and with thousands of viewers on the street, including kids and babies.

I didn't follow the news when this incident happened, I just knew it was a big tragedy and a very sad one. So, when I watched the movie, I was astounded and touched in the end, and tears just couldn't help to flow out from my eyes.

I am so impressed to see when the people are so strong in helping each other in such time, and to want to stop the bombers from doing further harm again, how far they can go, and how it proves that love always wins. Love always win...

The casting was nice, the actors do resemble most of the people in real life and even the t-shirt that young boy (bomber) were wearing when he was arrested, such details just complemented the movie nicely.

I am thankful that this movie is the first movie for my 2017, it's a good one and I am looking forward to watch more movie this year, the type that will always inspired me in the good way.

Wednesday, 7 December 2016

Song: Can You See by Kayee Tam 谭嘉仪

最近,时常追看港剧,在其中一套港剧里,听到了这首感觉很清新的英文歌,歌名叫做Can You See。 在这里和大家分享这首歌曲,除了好听之外,还蛮有圣诞节的 feel~ 

MV 拍得很美,只是和歌词不是很相符啦。(纯属个人感觉与喜好。)

曲: 鄺靜欣
詞: Wayne James 
編: 朱俊傑 
監: 何哲圖/朱俊傑

Can you see
Light in my eyes
Like a child waiting for Christmas
The stars in the sky
Watch as I sigh
Can you see what they see?

Look at the trees
They're swaying
They feel the touch of the breeze
They overheard 
My whispered words
Can you hear what I'm saying?

Maybe I am only dreaming
So what if I'm wrong?
It can't be that long
Before you stop
And feel what I'm feeling
The stars and trees will always be
As I love you so
Can you see?

Look at the clouds
They're waking
Stretch in the warmth of the sun
They watch us and smile
And linger a while
Can you see the hearts they're making?

Maybe I am only dreaming
So what if I'm wrong
It can’t be that long
Before you look 
And feel what I'm feeling
The sun and clouds will always be
As I love you so
Can you see?

Maybe I am only dreaming
So what if I'm wrong
It can't be that long
Before you stop 
And feel what I'm feeling
Like all these things will always be
Yes, I love you, so
Can you see?

Elf's: Final Decision?

It's been so long, I have not penned down any thoughts, even posted any picture here, like I have shut myself off...

I was busy, so busy with works and overtimes for extra income. I had made my life as if it all about the money only. I fell sick a few times in November, I got depressed, and demotivated to go to work. I am home sick, miss mom and Sannie at home, Laney, Mandee and baby Nana at Southend, and dad, in heaven.

Getting emotional, yes, for sure, especially in festive season. More than 10 times I haven thinking when should I tender and go back for good again. But, will I get to do things that will make me happy? Or will it be the same again? Will I miss Singapore again this time after I leave? Honestly, I think this time, I am ready to leave this little red dot.

I think, I have missed out too many things ever since I started to work abroad, since 2006. Missed the time to spent with my dad before he went home to heaven, that's about 10 years or time. This year, since I came back, I missed time for grandma, and I didn't even get to visit her in July when I came back from London. I took things for granted, and she left us in September when I am not prepared at all. I missed the moment of Sannie's first born, missed the full moon celebration, gonna missed the 100 days celebrations too on 01 January 2017. And many more things that I have and going to miss... Next year, will be my first time not able to celebrate Chinese New Year eve and first day of Chinese New Year at home, all thanks to this job.

I don't know how some of the people can work like 15 years in a call center, to me, 1 year is more than enough. The pay is not too big if you don't work for overtime. But you gotta sacrifice your off and rest day to work, and that, will in conjunction of sacrificing your health for body and soul. I truly believe that we are made by God to learn to rest in Him, but the busyness and stress I got from my job has totally robbed me of my rest and peace. It even draw me further from God, I don't attend church, because I am scheduled to work on Sunday, and because I am too lazy and tired to wake up early for church then go to work in the afternoon.

All these are so wrong! The reason why I am so eagerly and keen to come back to Singapore is because I miss my church life in ncc. But ever since I started my shift work, everything just changed. I felt so stressed when being asked by fellow ministries servers and leaders, when will I be back to serve. I love to, to be honest, but I just can't.

And so, I brought up my feeling and thoughts to Laney, Sannie and mom, that I am gonna resign, probably next year after Chinese New Year, and go home for good. Thank God, that they are very understanding and supportive for my decision. If everything goes smooth, I should be tendering in February.

And Lord, I pray, that You open the door to the path that You have prepared for me, and closed those that are not meant for me. Amen.

Friday, 16 September 2016







Sunday, 31 July 2016

Elf's: H. U. G.

hug is a form of physical intimacy, universal in human communities, in which two or more people put their arms around the neck, back, or waist of one another and hold each other closely. If more than two persons are involved, this is informally referred to as a group hug.

- excerpt from Wikipedia-


Sunday, 22 May 2016

Elf's: The Dark Night of The Soul

It's truly the season of dark night for my soul now...

Have been facing challenges at work, not so much with skills or product knowledge, but with the environment and people there.

So many negative things I saw and felt but I chose to be optimistic, since day one I joined this company. But recently, I felt completely disrespect by my manager when I apologised for a mistake that I made. Honestly, I can't just let go the feeling. Although I am a new staff, but I do believe in mutual respect for one another. Even though between the CEO and the cleaner. However, the longer I work with my team, the more I see and feel. The leaders are always act according to their mood. Good mood, good treatment, bad mood, that's it. They will talk softly still, but sarcastically, and other might not even know what did they say. And so, we have to swallow their vomits on us. I really dislike it, I hate it!

O Lord, help me!

I am thinking of changing job, and praying for the right door to open. Perhaps, I should go to London and try working there for a short period? Or return to Malaysia and start the online business seriously? Lord, which way Lord? Where do I go from here? I am lost, Lord...