He has made everything beautiful in it's time.

He has made everything beautiful in it's time.
Ecclesiates 3:11

Wednesday, 9 August 2017

Elf's: Feeling vs Reality

有时候, 有时候


Heard this song from an album playlist on Spotify just now while walking home from MRT, had a strong feeling about the lyrics of the chorus... what if I never give up, will there be a change?

But God is good, as I am typing and asking myself all the "what if" question, the Holy Spirit reminded me on my favourite bible verse.

He has made everything beautiful in its time... Ecclesiastes 3:11
How lovely is this reminder... Thank You ABBA!

There is no what if, only surely, in God's promises for me, His beloved. Hallelujah!!!

Oh how beautiful Your love for me
Oh how wonderful Your grace unending

How beautiful and wonderful His love and grace for me, and it's never ending... 

Wednesday, 12 July 2017

Song: 印记 - 谭嘉仪

编曲:Cousin Fung

从前和你 详谈人生的哲理
这夜怎么说起 祝福两报喜

儿时和你 流连忘返的嬉戏
挂念那种趣味 请不要忘记

看见你已找到他 愿这遍爱逐渐发芽
每碰到厌倦困局 亦不要害怕
来面对时 紧紧捉紧他

*求缘份来到 便执手可到老
或艰辛的旅途再辛劳 亦深知不会再有更好
留起 那花瓣常陪你
亦锁紧这个爱的 印记

茫茫人里 如何能跟他一对
这是上天注定 相拥再说声

成为情侣 长情如他的爱侣
你没什么畏惧 只管爱里沈醉

*求缘份来到 幸褔不止到老
永不息的爱慕 旁人也深深感觉到他的好
如今 让浪漫情内渗


Sunday, 9 July 2017

Elf's: Attending NCC with sissie for the first time

Yes! It's an answered prayer! Thank You Lord!

Finally, sissie has opened her heart to attend NCC with me today! No words can describe my feeling, but I am so thankful for today! Towards the end of today's service, I leaned over and rest my head on her shoulder and hugged her from the side and my tears just couldn't stop... Like a dream comes true... Thank You Jesus!

And sissie has returned to Singapore since end of June.

We attended 4th service with Juan How, after we both ended work at 3pm, or rather, after he waited for me until 3pm, then we both went to Buona Vista to wait for sissie...

Had some light bites from Kitchen by Kuofu before the service starts at 5.30pm, and took some pictures as that's what sissie likes to do.

Sissie and I

and Mr Juan

And.. tada!!! We are in church!!! seated at my favourite seats.... have not seen KC for a very long time... just a thought... haha!

Kingdom sisterhood and new brother, amen? 

Today's message was a playback message from Pastors Prince current preaching engagement at Megafest 2017 - Woman Thou Art Loose, one of the best sermons pastor has preached in the recent year, they claimed. I think pastor has many more great sermons, but this one is surely one of the best evangelical message, he preached on John 12, the woman caught in adultery, the first message i heard from him, in 2011. And pastor sang too,  the old hymn -There Is A Fountain Filled With Blood. Just like the first time when I attended New Creation Church. Perhas, God wants to remind me of my first love with Him again. Thank You Lord, I love, because You have first loved me.

Then, we went for dinner, as sissie was here on a mission to find a job, and I don't want her to be pressured with the foods I like to eat, we decided to go eat cheap local food, and as JH said we will be having nasi lemak from QiJi on coming Tuesday, we decided to dine at Encik Tan. It was a wrong choice, the food was awfully awful! I am sorry, but it was really bad. Thank God the companion was good!

us, when Mr Juan was away to take our drinks
the happy faces before tuck in, and Mr Juan did not say grace for us... 
But, God is good as we decided to go for dessert at Cedele! And thanks JH for treating us the super good dessert! 

Red Velvet for 3

The happy faces
And the night ended with so much fun laughter. We had great conversation in learning tagalog from sissie, and we talked about serious topic like borrowing money to a friend, and JH happened to have the same opinion like what pastor shared, that is not to expect to get the money back. 

The Star

As we went to the MRT station to depart our ways, sissie gave JH a hug, which I thank God for such divine arrangement, as he has recently lost his beloved grandma, whom is closed to him, and he told me he cried the night before while watching the last episode of 花甲男孩转大人. I thought of giving him a hug but there was no chance and I was too shy to do that, that reminds me of hugging Frankie on the night he sent me home.. well, I drank too much and had more than enough courage that night.. well, so, I told sissie to give him a hug and thank God she did and I am happy that God used sissie to do this for me. I hope that somehow ease the bitterness and sadness he has right now. 

I lost my maternal grandma in year 2009, and that year, I was being invited to church by Fred C. and accepted Jesus Christ as my personal Lord and Saviour. I hope, Lord, Your presence gave JH the same peace, and open his eyes, ears and heart to you, in no time. Amen. And I lost my beloved earthly daddy in year 2014 and paternal grandma in 2016, I can relate to his feeling, somehow. A hug is the best medicine to me, I hope it helps him too. 

As Lord, I pray for sissie, Lord, You love her and You will prosper her way in Singapore. Amen!

Friday, 20 January 2017

five minute friday :: refine

The words and promises of The Lord are pure words, like silver refined in an earthen furnace, purified seven times over. ~ Psalm 12:6, AMP

I am currently on a journey to nowhere, and I can't say that I have been praying earnestly, in fact, I didn't.

But God, our ever faithful Daddy God, so loving, so patience and so faithful, my everlasting Father in heaven. He just won't let me live a life this way, and I am constantly being reminded by friends, and the Holy Spirit, to go back to His words.

The flesh are weak, but the Spirit are alive, and I am making my way back to God's words. I started my daily devotion reading, listening to Pastor Prince's sermon on my iPhone 6, praise & worship songs and musics.

I am not trying to be holy again, I am trying to be happy again, and only Him can bring true happiness to me. This, I am truly thankful for. Hallelujah!

Wednesday, 11 January 2017

Movie: Patriot's Day

First movie for 2017, a great one I must say. Thanks to M1, and Tina for the free ticket, though watching it with a colleague that I don't think I will wanna watch movie with him alone again, but at least he is not those chatty type that will keep talking during the movie. Haha!

The movie, is based on the real event, the Boston Marathon 2013. The bomb that killed 3 and injured many when the yearly marathon was ongoing and with thousands of viewers on the street, including kids and babies.

I didn't follow the news when this incident happened, I just knew it was a big tragedy and a very sad one. So, when I watched the movie, I was astounded and touched in the end, and tears just couldn't help to flow out from my eyes.

I am so impressed to see when the people are so strong in helping each other in such time, and to want to stop the bombers from doing further harm again, how far they can go, and how it proves that love always wins. Love always win...

The casting was nice, the actors do resemble most of the people in real life and even the t-shirt that young boy (bomber) were wearing when he was arrested, such details just complemented the movie nicely.

I am thankful that this movie is the first movie for my 2017, it's a good one and I am looking forward to watch more movie this year, the type that will always inspired me in the good way.

Wednesday, 7 December 2016

Song: Can You See by Kayee Tam 谭嘉仪

最近,时常追看港剧,在其中一套港剧里,听到了这首感觉很清新的英文歌,歌名叫做Can You See。 在这里和大家分享这首歌曲,除了好听之外,还蛮有圣诞节的 feel~ 

MV 拍得很美,只是和歌词不是很相符啦。(纯属个人感觉与喜好。)

曲: 鄺靜欣
詞: Wayne James 
編: 朱俊傑 
監: 何哲圖/朱俊傑

Can you see
Light in my eyes
Like a child waiting for Christmas
The stars in the sky
Watch as I sigh
Can you see what they see?

Look at the trees
They're swaying
They feel the touch of the breeze
They overheard 
My whispered words
Can you hear what I'm saying?

Maybe I am only dreaming
So what if I'm wrong?
It can't be that long
Before you stop
And feel what I'm feeling
The stars and trees will always be
As I love you so
Can you see?

Look at the clouds
They're waking
Stretch in the warmth of the sun
They watch us and smile
And linger a while
Can you see the hearts they're making?

Maybe I am only dreaming
So what if I'm wrong
It can’t be that long
Before you look 
And feel what I'm feeling
The sun and clouds will always be
As I love you so
Can you see?

Maybe I am only dreaming
So what if I'm wrong
It can't be that long
Before you stop 
And feel what I'm feeling
Like all these things will always be
Yes, I love you, so
Can you see?

Elf's: Final Decision?

It's been so long, I have not penned down any thoughts, even posted any picture here, like I have shut myself off...

I was busy, so busy with works and overtimes for extra income. I had made my life as if it all about the money only. I fell sick a few times in November, I got depressed, and demotivated to go to work. I am home sick, miss mom and Sannie at home, Laney, Mandee and baby Nana at Southend, and dad, in heaven.

Getting emotional, yes, for sure, especially in festive season. More than 10 times I haven thinking when should I tender and go back for good again. But, will I get to do things that will make me happy? Or will it be the same again? Will I miss Singapore again this time after I leave? Honestly, I think this time, I am ready to leave this little red dot.

I think, I have missed out too many things ever since I started to work abroad, since 2006. Missed the time to spent with my dad before he went home to heaven, that's about 10 years or time. This year, since I came back, I missed time for grandma, and I didn't even get to visit her in July when I came back from London. I took things for granted, and she left us in September when I am not prepared at all. I missed the moment of Sannie's first born, missed the full moon celebration, gonna missed the 100 days celebrations too on 01 January 2017. And many more things that I have and going to miss... Next year, will be my first time not able to celebrate Chinese New Year eve and first day of Chinese New Year at home, all thanks to this job.

I don't know how some of the people can work like 15 years in a call center, to me, 1 year is more than enough. The pay is not too big if you don't work for overtime. But you gotta sacrifice your off and rest day to work, and that, will in conjunction of sacrificing your health for body and soul. I truly believe that we are made by God to learn to rest in Him, but the busyness and stress I got from my job has totally robbed me of my rest and peace. It even draw me further from God, I don't attend church, because I am scheduled to work on Sunday, and because I am too lazy and tired to wake up early for church then go to work in the afternoon.

All these are so wrong! The reason why I am so eagerly and keen to come back to Singapore is because I miss my church life in ncc. But ever since I started my shift work, everything just changed. I felt so stressed when being asked by fellow ministries servers and leaders, when will I be back to serve. I love to, to be honest, but I just can't.

And so, I brought up my feeling and thoughts to Laney, Sannie and mom, that I am gonna resign, probably next year after Chinese New Year, and go home for good. Thank God, that they are very understanding and supportive for my decision. If everything goes smooth, I should be tendering in February.

And Lord, I pray, that You open the door to the path that You have prepared for me, and closed those that are not meant for me. Amen.